There is no name for this. Try as we might to give it a label that means something, all words are just lines, curves, spaces… in themselves, they have no meaning. I can’t even find a letter or a word beyond thought, beyond sound, beyond squiggles on a page, beyond the concept “word.”
I’m touched today by this powerful river of love that has nowhere to land. Love for the tender, messy, crazy beauty of the human experience. Love for heartbreak. Love for jealousy. Love for just sitting here. Love for people who bug me. Love for the freedom of falling and never finding a place to settle, for the generosity and kindness of life and for you.
Reading Jeff Foster’s new book, The Deepest Acceptance, I was struck by his observation that there are no opposites. What is opposite of now? What is opposite of this heaviness in the chest? What is opposite of the sound of cars outside? What is opposite of this typing at a computer? Yes, as Jeff points out, thoughts come in and say – well, of course, the opposite is no sensation, no sound, no typing… but those are just thoughts. Thoughts occurring now. What is the opposite of now? Can you find one? Right now?
When it is seen that there are no opposites, there is only this, now, there is a palpable relaxation because then the seeking for something else can come to rest. There is only this. Even thoughts of something else are only this.
Everything is here right now in this experience.
When I was first getting acquainted with Non-Duality teachings. I would hear so many people talk about love and it would irritate me because I wanted to feel the love I thought they felt. I was clear that until I felt that love, I was missing something huge. I wasn’t getting it.
What seems more apparent, more obvious now is that by the simple act of chasing love, I was continuing the search for something other than this. Now, in addition to peace and freedom and enlightenment, I was seeking a concept called love.
After doing a lot of self inquiry, and as seeking dies down and it’s seen there is no opposite of now, of this, Love is felt naturally. Love for all the not-Love, love for all the simple ordinary fullness of life. Love for nothing and love for everything.
And even love has no place to land, nothing to hold on to. It’s not directed at anyone or anything in particular. As soon as I try to find it again, it’s gone. As soon as I stop looking for it, it’s here.
It’s that paradox again. As long as we are seeking, even seeking Now, we’re missing what’s already here.
It’s okay to relax.
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